reality

i can't believe how busy i have been lately. call it a blessing or just pure craziness, but i am ready to take a bubble bath and sip on something yummy ;).

i am not certain what one thing is so overwhelming - well that is it, it just isn't one thing, it is a million little things! i can hardly keep up with the updates/permission slips/requests coming home from school, let alone all the other 'little' things i have to do. motherhood. gotta love it. one thing i am learning is that this is life. this is reality. you work so hard to balance this long board - on one end is your family and the other end is yourself - and in between is LIFE. you want to do the best for your kids (faith, foods, medicines, clothes, entertainment, sports, education) and the same for yourself. in graduate school we learned about different theories (of course), one of which i often think about. it is called the paradoxical theory of change, which basically states that the more we try to change the more we will stay the same. so no matter how hard we try to change our 'ways' most likely we will stay the way we are, is how i look at it. staying close to our roots, to what is right, to what provides love and caring for each other. not a random fad that is coming through or a new train ride to hop onto. so among all the craziness, i bring myself back to reality and remember who i am, what faith means to me and how i can provide real things for my family. i love you all, eric, kadence, kambel and ty. you too buster ;).